me, and oh yeah, you too
01-21-08 05:31
I like reading blogs and having a sense of knowing someone. I know one blogger on elowel personally - a voice to go with the name, facial expressions, what her smile really looks like. But then I was reading a couple entries that really hit home and realized that things [we blog about] might not be something as personal as I, or perhaps we, would like to believe...they are certainly personal, but in the rain storm of our youth (let's say from adolescence to after grad school, to be more specific) we've probably experienced a lot of the same things.
Maybe you've already thought about this, but I really hadn't. As it is, my best friends and I have generally shared similar value systems, upbringings, financial backgrounds, maturity levels - things that made it easier, naturally, for us to relate. I found my soulmate at 18 in a girl named Jennifer, who I've become close with over our [quickly approaching end, in her case] time at college together. We just seemed to have experienced and felt the same things, sometimes even concurrently, and understand often to a fair degree what the other person feels. As much as you can feel what another person feels, anyway.
Whichhhh brings me to wonder how many elowelers have experienced some of the things I have...
1. Making your best friend in the world cry when you tell her to fuck off. (And then feeling shittier than shit, and possibly shittier than you ever have in your life.)
2. Told your significant other your darkest secret(s).
3. Accidentally cut yourself and wonder what it would feel like to do it on purpose.
4. Gotten yourself out of a relationship (romantic or otherwise, the first or maybe second or third time around) because you realized things (what you needed, that nothing was changing, that you'd be sad but eventually better) and stuck to it.
5. Watched pirate themed porn.
6. Gone down on a firecrotch.
7. Regretted making out with someone because you knew although it meant nothing to you it meant something to them.
8. Showered in the dorm bathroom of the opposite sex.
9. Texted while in a bathroom stall actually doing business.
10. Thought about buying a girl a cucumber and telling her that practice makes perfect just to see if she'd buy it.
11. Peed in a pool.
12. Peed in a public shower, but never in home shower.
13. Lied to a caller about your age to avoid talking about your community, and then feeling guilty.
14. Left AIM on just to talk to random people and not feel alone.
15. Like popping pimples.
16. Bought a college biology book for fun [actual reading of it not required].
17. Hated a job but gone back because you feel uncomfortable/scared/lazy/potentially inadequate as far as applying elsewhere.
18. Let a dog kiss you on the mouth, even if it stuck it's tongue in your mouth.
19. Gotten yourself off on family furniture.
20. Let a friendship go after a reconciliation.
21. Slept in your parents bedroom while they were also there [non-sexual, in my case after scary movies].
22. Thought you've found the one you're going to spend the rest of your life with.
23. Never bitch slapped anyone because you were too afraid to, but desperately wanted to.
24. Would feel ashamed for bitch slapping someone because why can't women just haul off and punch a guy as well as they're trying to get the point across that they are serious?
25. Felt insecure and unintellectual (not a real word) because of personal reading choices.
The list goes on and on, and I don't expect anyone to have actually read all of this, much less replied, but I find it interesting that our personal lives can overlap on such a grand scheme and yet vary so much at the same time.
Maybe you've already thought about this, but I really hadn't. As it is, my best friends and I have generally shared similar value systems, upbringings, financial backgrounds, maturity levels - things that made it easier, naturally, for us to relate. I found my soulmate at 18 in a girl named Jennifer, who I've become close with over our [quickly approaching end, in her case] time at college together. We just seemed to have experienced and felt the same things, sometimes even concurrently, and understand often to a fair degree what the other person feels. As much as you can feel what another person feels, anyway.
Whichhhh brings me to wonder how many elowelers have experienced some of the things I have...
1. Making your best friend in the world cry when you tell her to fuck off. (And then feeling shittier than shit, and possibly shittier than you ever have in your life.)
2. Told your significant other your darkest secret(s).
3. Accidentally cut yourself and wonder what it would feel like to do it on purpose.
4. Gotten yourself out of a relationship (romantic or otherwise, the first or maybe second or third time around) because you realized things (what you needed, that nothing was changing, that you'd be sad but eventually better) and stuck to it.
5. Watched pirate themed porn.
6. Gone down on a firecrotch.
7. Regretted making out with someone because you knew although it meant nothing to you it meant something to them.
8. Showered in the dorm bathroom of the opposite sex.
9. Texted while in a bathroom stall actually doing business.
10. Thought about buying a girl a cucumber and telling her that practice makes perfect just to see if she'd buy it.
11. Peed in a pool.
12. Peed in a public shower, but never in home shower.
13. Lied to a caller about your age to avoid talking about your community, and then feeling guilty.
14. Left AIM on just to talk to random people and not feel alone.
15. Like popping pimples.
16. Bought a college biology book for fun [actual reading of it not required].
17. Hated a job but gone back because you feel uncomfortable/scared/lazy/potentially inadequate as far as applying elsewhere.
18. Let a dog kiss you on the mouth, even if it stuck it's tongue in your mouth.
19. Gotten yourself off on family furniture.
20. Let a friendship go after a reconciliation.
21. Slept in your parents bedroom while they were also there [non-sexual, in my case after scary movies].
22. Thought you've found the one you're going to spend the rest of your life with.
23. Never bitch slapped anyone because you were too afraid to, but desperately wanted to.
24. Would feel ashamed for bitch slapping someone because why can't women just haul off and punch a guy as well as they're trying to get the point across that they are serious?
25. Felt insecure and unintellectual (not a real word) because of personal reading choices.
The list goes on and on, and I don't expect anyone to have actually read all of this, much less replied, but I find it interesting that our personal lives can overlap on such a grand scheme and yet vary so much at the same time.